Wow! We're already 300 days into this year!
I'm already starting to think about next year. I've got my chosen mission word for the year. I do this instead of resolutions. And I'm reflecting on the mission I gave myself for THIS year.
That mission was discipline. It's definitely a difficult mission. In a few areas of my life, I've made some GREAT progress.
I'm:
...no longer binge watching TV because I feel aimless in life. In fact, I don't watch much TV anymore. I LOVE TV, don't get me wrong. It's also not a huge priority at the moment. And that's okay. I can come back to the shows at a later date and watch them on my own time. There are only a handful of shows I want to watch as they air. And that's the big thing. Want to. For a while, I wasn't watching TV because I wanted to. It was just...something to do. I felt zero fulfilment. So I've replaced that activity with something that does make me feel fulfilled.
...reading and gaming more. Those would be the activities that give me more fulfilment. Are they still great uses of my time? I guess that depends on your perspective. I think so. I feel more joy and more like myself when I do them. Being true to oneself seems to be a huge piece of mental health, I'm finding.
...focusing on simpler things. This all kind of ties together. I'm not so engrossed with doing a certain thing because it's trendy and cool. On having things for the sake of having them. I'm happy to have that back in my life. That was one of my missions from before, and it did take some discipline to get there because my brain fought me on this. Then when it realized this is so much better for me, personally, it got on board.
...pulling away from unnecessary negative spaces. Like social media. I have a few accounts still, yes. I interact in a few spaces still, but they are healthy spaces rather than toxic ones. I'm very careful about what I post and what I interact with now. That takes discipline because it's hard to ignore the bad sometimes.
...no longer addicted to food. This is a hard one to write about, I'll be honest. For a while, I was eating to deal with my depression and feel fleeting joy. This is no longer a thing. I'm much more careful about the quantities of food I'm eating. I'm using discipline to remind myself to use food for constructive things, enjoy it, and also not feeling guilt for enjoying it. It's walking the fine line, and walking on those lines and not jumping into one unhealthy extreme or another is very tough.
...taking better care of my body as a whole. Given some of the things my body is doing, I've had to change my diet in some extreme ways and that's been difficult. It takes discipline to stick to a new diet, but man do I feel better now. I'm moving more, and moving in different ways than before to help with the things that caused my back to go out of whack.
...more dedicated to my creative work. This one has been the most challenging. When I look at my progress over the past few years, I have come a long way. I've accomplished many things. Maybe not in the form of new words, but it's still been a lot.
I write these all down to celebrate my victories.
Next month is NaNoWriMo, or the new adventure of Celebration of Words--a.k.a. COW.
I will be disciplined with the words. I will. That is the next victory!
Currently...Playing: "Secret of Mana". "Mario RPG".
Streaming on Twitch: "Stardew Valley". "Grandia". "Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core, Reunion".
Reading: "Atlas Shrugged" audiobook. "Fairy Godmother" ebook. "The Bane of Asgard" ebook.
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