S1: Day 78 (78)
Mar. 19th, 2023 09:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jillysriserI'm finally at a point where I feel like writing again, for real. As long as I can stay healthy, this is going to happen during the week. Pretty sure I'm feeling healthy! My energy is fully back from being ill, and I feel like I've got my life prioritized in a way that is satisfying.
Last night at church, a guest speaker said something along the lines of "You can't be fully whole until you are fully yourself and who God made YOU to be" and that really struck a chord with me. I'm pretty good at people pleasing. I don't like to cause waves. Most of the time this works out okay, but sometimes by doing this I am not true to myself and it always hurts me in a big way. A big way that I brush under the rug and ignore until it's too big of a pile.
My goal is to be more of my authentic self, and to be more honest. That is just part one of what I'm energized about.
Part two is the last night I had a dream about my project. In it, I had a reworking of a number of ideas. These were exciting ideas, but they are definitely going to require an overhaul of my current book. However, I'm ready to do the work! I will probably write multiple versions of my book to see which one I like better, and while this is more work for me, the rewards are definitely going to be worth it.
Currently...
Playing: "Hades", streaming on Twitch. "Horizon: Forbidden West", also streaming. "Harvestella", ch 3. "Legend of Dragoon", ch 1, also streaming.
Reading: "Virgins", ebook. "Our Share of Night", print.
Watching: "Stranger Things" season 2.
Last night at church, a guest speaker said something along the lines of "You can't be fully whole until you are fully yourself and who God made YOU to be" and that really struck a chord with me. I'm pretty good at people pleasing. I don't like to cause waves. Most of the time this works out okay, but sometimes by doing this I am not true to myself and it always hurts me in a big way. A big way that I brush under the rug and ignore until it's too big of a pile.
My goal is to be more of my authentic self, and to be more honest. That is just part one of what I'm energized about.
Part two is the last night I had a dream about my project. In it, I had a reworking of a number of ideas. These were exciting ideas, but they are definitely going to require an overhaul of my current book. However, I'm ready to do the work! I will probably write multiple versions of my book to see which one I like better, and while this is more work for me, the rewards are definitely going to be worth it.
Currently...
Playing: "Hades", streaming on Twitch. "Horizon: Forbidden West", also streaming. "Harvestella", ch 3. "Legend of Dragoon", ch 1, also streaming.
Reading: "Virgins", ebook. "Our Share of Night", print.
Watching: "Stranger Things" season 2.
