S1: Day 143 (143)
May. 23rd, 2023 08:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jillysriserI didn't take a nap this morning after the kids got on the bus. This is a victory for me. I'm currently absorbing the peace of my quiet house and trying to figure out what happened to make me fall out of love with the process of actually putting the words to paper.
I still find great joy in plotting out scenes and visualizing everything that happens in my stories. I've got so many wonderful plans, and I can't wait to get them out for the rest of the world to enjoy too. But I used to actually have a lot of fun doing the work. Lately, I wish I could put a recorder in my brain and have that magically transport the words onto the page instead of making my hands do it. Sure, I could verbally dictate the words, but even then, I don't think it would be what I'm looking for in terms of an end result. So much of what I pull from my brain is so clunky in comparison to the images that appear in my mind.
This is a struggle I'm sure I'll write about often. Part of the point of this blog is to share those struggles honestly, and this is the kind of problem that comes and goes in waves. Same can be said about my energy levels.
Right now, I need to focus on the these last three weeks of my day job. I need to focus on keep my sanity and my sense of peace. This is hard when my ambition is so great. I'm always so tired, I can't seem to take those first steps out.
Currently...
Playing: "Breath of the Wild". "Legend of Dragoon". "Assassin's Creed: Valhalla", streaming on Twitch. "Potion Permit", also streaming.
Reading: "My Heart is a Chainsaw", ebook. "Bear and the Nightingale", print. "Chain Gang All Stars", print. "All My Knotted Up Life", print.
Watching: "Stranger Things" season 3. "Barry" season 1.
I still find great joy in plotting out scenes and visualizing everything that happens in my stories. I've got so many wonderful plans, and I can't wait to get them out for the rest of the world to enjoy too. But I used to actually have a lot of fun doing the work. Lately, I wish I could put a recorder in my brain and have that magically transport the words onto the page instead of making my hands do it. Sure, I could verbally dictate the words, but even then, I don't think it would be what I'm looking for in terms of an end result. So much of what I pull from my brain is so clunky in comparison to the images that appear in my mind.
This is a struggle I'm sure I'll write about often. Part of the point of this blog is to share those struggles honestly, and this is the kind of problem that comes and goes in waves. Same can be said about my energy levels.
Right now, I need to focus on the these last three weeks of my day job. I need to focus on keep my sanity and my sense of peace. This is hard when my ambition is so great. I'm always so tired, I can't seem to take those first steps out.
Currently...
Playing: "Breath of the Wild". "Legend of Dragoon". "Assassin's Creed: Valhalla", streaming on Twitch. "Potion Permit", also streaming.
Reading: "My Heart is a Chainsaw", ebook. "Bear and the Nightingale", print. "Chain Gang All Stars", print. "All My Knotted Up Life", print.
Watching: "Stranger Things" season 3. "Barry" season 1.
